Might not update for quite some time unless I'm feeling desperate to pour my feelings out .

But like what I've learnt today,

Kay I know I said I'll be on hiatus but since nobody really reads this blog anymore, why should I care whether I keep to my word or not ?

Everyday I try to hold back my tears, I'm struggling inside . It's only the first 2 weeks, there's pressure but I'm not over-stressing myself . Is that supposed to be good ? Everytime I switch on the computer, I just feel like blogging everything out, all my feelings & my heartfelt nothings that I know nobody'll bother to read . I don't know what's right & what's real anymore . I'm holding everything inside, I'm keeping it all to myself . Don't ask me, I can't tell you if I don't even know myself .

You know me better than I ever knew myself . I hope you can tell .

Forget about that, I'm gonna do myself proud for this upcoming O'levels . I will not, I repeat; NOT fail - even if it's just a mere class test . My aim ? To get a good score so I can prove to those arrogant people that someone actually CAN outsmart them . I'm not referring to anyone in particular, so it's just too bad if you feel guilty .

Targets:
EL - A2/B3
MT - B3/B4
E.MATHS - A2/B3
A.MATHS - B3/B4
CHEM - A2/B3
PHY - B3/B4
E.GEOG/SS - A2/B3
LIT - A2/B3

I've just realized that I've no motivation . I'll make a few up . Get a good score that I can be proud of, top 15 (kinda impossible), get out of NV, be euphoric . 15; Less than 15 .

I don't understand how some people can make a timetable for themselves and actually managed to stick to it . I don't even know where to start . Damn it . I need a study buddy . Wait, on second thoughts, no . I'm disruptive when I'm studying :]

37 degrees fever yesterday; skipped band as a result . I hope I'm better by Saturday evening, until then I'm resting 24/7 . Sucks when you have to swallow 10 tablets per day .

Hello readers (if I have any) :D

Time flies, it really does . First week of school already overrr . How nice . Maybe teacher's right, in a blink of an eye, we'll be sitting for our O'levels already . Awesome . So anyhoo, Friday was a-okay :D Changed seating arrangement, I'm alright with it :]

Bought my Literature book during Recess, like FINALLY . It's a really interesting text, I'll read the whole book over the weekends . Seriously, I was even reading it during English period . Oops . Hehe . Oh, and for those who didn't know, there's a translation at the back of the book . So don't ask me okay :D To be honest, Idkw I find that book interesting .. Vinod reminds me of him, I freaking hated that . But, ohwell .

After school, waited for Amirah for like an hour plus . Then compass-ed, ate at Banquet . Had a hell lot of laughs today . My stomach hurts like wth ): LOL . Our very first HFMNX eat-together for the new year, hehe .

Honestly speaking, first week of school was alright :D

Oh, did I mentioned that we had a Matrix Test today ? I hope I passed . 'Cause I skipped the first 2 A.maths question . The whole class knew their marks for that test except for me . NICE RIGHT -.- !!!

I'll try to update this blog every week even though I know there's like, no more readers already hahahaha . I don't blog for the sake of you readers, I blog 'cause it's my hobby ._. I remember my first blog waaay back during P4/P5 . Where I would private it & only fill it with graphics I found on the internet . Hahahaha . I wonder what happened to it anyway .

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OH BTW,


Boys Like Girls coming to Singapore ! OMG I WANNA GO !!! But, no time for leisure this year . How disappointing . I officially have no life until my O'levels are over . Everyday after school I bury myself in books . Piles & piles of books . Sleep at 11pm, and continue the whole same routine all over again -.-

Hi, I should be revising now but I'll do it after this post :]

First day of school just now, hello sec 4 life .

Started raining heavily early morning, dad had to dropped me at the bus stop since the traffic is jammed ? Hahaha . I forgot there's shelter all the way, take out my umbrella for nothing -.-

Went up to my new class, placed my bag near the back door since there seemed to be no other places & that it's near to Farah's place hehe . Didn't realized that the bag next to mine was Hui En's, lucky its not some other people that I know I won't feel comfortable seating next with hahaha .

First 4 periods, welcome-back-to-school-stuffs, rules etc . Bleh . Chairman/Vice-chairman were chosen, teacher wanted the same 2 as last year, meaning me & Sze Dee . But since Farah volunteered herself, she's the VC & Sze Dee's still the Chairman . Haha SD, haha :P

Then for the secretary, teacher was asking me -.-


NICE RIGHT . I feel like I've been demoted . You know, from a VC in 2009 to a Secretary in 2010 ._. LOLLL . Kay, Alwin's one much more funnier ;


Okay it's not exact but it's something like that okay . Hahaha .

Lessons were alright, since it's the first day . Not much elaboration needed .

Band after school, it was alright . But librarian duties were stressful, still . I mean, can't they at least photocopy it correctly ? It's like, 1/5 of the notes can't be seen . At all . We don't even know which score belongs to which instrument . THANKS . So we spent sectionals sorting out those stuffs . Luckily Yuhzhen was helping, I think I'll die doing it all alone, seriously -.-

& Husna told me to watch this one show . I mean, it's kinda heart-breaking in a way, seeing the situation all that . But seeing his face, JUST THAT, makes me laugh . EVERYTIME . Seriously spoil the whole mood ! I won't name what channel or what show, I don't want people to know who I'm referring to hahaha . But Husna should know, no ? :P

Gosh, this is such a long post .. Guess I have lots to blogged about just for my first day :] Well, I might leave this blog dead . Maybe I'll come back to the cyberworld once a week . It's only the first day and I've already have some work to do . Shall end this post here then . Hehe, thanks for reading this crap if you bothered :] LOL .

Okay, as much as I'd always welcome the new year .. I'm not really looking forward to 2010 . I mean, this year means that I'm in Sec 4 now . That I'm taking my O'levels in the near future . *sighs*