I go back to December all the time.

Monday, November 29, 2010

I'd do it all again for you ♥

Hi pardon me for my previous post .

That's what paranoia can do to someone .

Haha kay anyway, had 4E2 class chalet just now & even though it was okaaay,

my awesome classmates made my day ♥

(I'm lazy to elaborate anyway)

I ♥ 4E2'10 :D
Organise some outing soon pleaseee :D

23:59

Sunday, November 28, 2010

The widest smile hides the painful truth .

YO . Haha kay I don't care who visits here anymore . I also lazy to bloghop already .
'Cause many don't use Blogger anymore so yaaa .
Anyway, that means that I can update whenever I want, which is kinda rare but whatever .

The reason I'm posting this at 4 in the morning is 'cause of insomnia, mainly .
& the fact that I'm feeling fucking depressed .

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I knew it . From the beginning I knew you're gonna do this to me . But even so I can't help but to feel crushed . So our friendship is just a pretentious act to you ? Yes, I don't like you, but I'm the kind that maintains a friendship & even though I don't show it, I treasure it . You're one of those who'd stick by me no matter what, & I like that about you . But now ? Just 'cause school's over you can fucking ignore me ?
So much for trusting you .

As for you, I don't want to talk about it . There's nothing left to say anyway . You left us, so fine, let it be . Yes, we were hurt at first . We talked about it a few times, reminiscing sometimes . But now we moved on . Parts & parcels of life . & now you're like living in the past . & don't make us look like the bad guys . You started it, I tried to fill in the space that kept growing between us, but you kept distancing yourself further . What more can I do ?

Why the fuck do I feel so alone . Losing a friend has always been a huge blow on me & I guess I've never really grew out of it . Still 16 & vulnerable, it was never meant to end this way . There are days that I feel strong, when nobody & nothing can affect my mood . But there are also days when I'm at my lowest, when I'm left with no more tears to cry my heart out; & this is one of them .

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Oh wow I sound so depressed now . I partly blame Insomnia for this, for not allowing me to sleep & causing me to reminisce . Oh well, I'm optimistic so I hope that I'll wake up to a better tomorrow . I'll be fine .

03:58

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

This is better for us .

They just can’t take it away.

We won’t let it end, all of us together.

Tonight I just want to spend time with my friends

and pray this feeling doesn’t end.

The years grow longer and our time is shorter,

but tonight is ours forever.

So who reads this blog again ? Hahaha .

Kay, so it's been 2 weeks after the end of O's & my schedule has been hectic .

JAE talk thingy followed by dress-hunting with Husna, Amirah & Sakinah at Somerset/Far East . Saw alooot of schoolmates there .
Attended TPRAWKS, too bad Grad High was during Day 2 . We missed out all the fun ! D:
Job-hunting with Sakinah just now . Hahaha epiiic moment . At least now we've learnt a lesson :)

Pffft now I'm re-considering whether to find a job or not .

Should've worked at IT fair maaan . Tsk .

Kay, so basically my November is packed .

Following brother to collect his PSLE results tmr .
Fleaaa with Husnaaa ~
CLASS CHALET ! I think I'm going for the 2nd day only ;)

On the other hand my December is fully empty .

Must organize outings . But why always me sia . Laaazy >:/

21:38

Monday, November 15, 2010

Take my hand, close your eyes .

Nobody reads this blog anymore due to my 10 months of absence hahaha .

Ohwell, I'm lazy to go around telling people that my blog's back alive . So um, lucky if they know .

My tagboard's so dead . Just cleared away all the past messages & I'm starting anew .

Kay this is lame, I'm like talking to the air now . I feel damn depressed .

He's not even online, I've nobody to crap with to make me feel better .

Whatever okay bye . I don't even know why I bothered in the first place .

21:18

Friday, November 12, 2010

Didn't know how much I miss you until you were gone .

If I could, I would do all of this again.
Travel back in time with you to where this all began.
We could hide inside ourselves, and leave the world behind.
We could make believe that there is something more to find.

O'LEVELS ARE OVER ! & I'm back from a long hiatus ;)
Not that anyone will care but why should I bother .

Kay, so here's what happened today:

Last O'level paper: Chemistry P1 :D
After it's done, Milton practically tore his entry proof :O
Walked to Compass, bumped into Zul :)
Breakfast with Amirah before her paper :D
Walked alone aimlessly at AMKhub .
Was greeted by 2 (new) hamsters when I reached home ^^

Overall, today is the BEST DAY EVER ♥

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Here's a few pictures of some of the people who made my 2010 awesome .

4E2'10, the best class ever ♥

♥ Here's only SOME of the people who made life in NV bearable ;)

Oh btw, the picture with the class tees is my class clique; ABCDE/J (other way round) :D

As pathetic as I sound, I only manage to have like 2 outings so far for this year .

Not enough free time due to the ever-so-stressful O'levels :/

Here's Husna, my favourite ♥ Who's next ? :D

Not forgetting Murnira, the one who's always been there for me since 2004 ♥

I am deprived of time & now I shall make the most out of it . It's funny how before O'levels, we'll have alot of things to do after it ends . But now that it's over, I feel so lost; like idk what to do or where to start . Ahhh, the irony .

I'm gonna end this post here to start bloghopping :D

Enjoy your ~~weekends~~ hoildays people ;)

Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming;

but if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right ♥

18:48